It’s natural to lie to yourself when you have a problem with alcohol.
I know I did, in multiple ways.
I lied that alcohol wasn’t actually that bad for my health even as it was clearly starting to damage my body inside and out.
Then I lied to myself that “strategies” could help me limit my drinking long-term. Silly garbage like, “I’ll only drink on weekends (it’s a trap), I’ll only have one drink a night (never works for long).” That sort of thing.