This Job Is Not Aligned With My Inner Purpose

Yes, it’s a massive privilege to announce that I cannot continue in my job because its basic purpose of bringing in money is not enough to keep me there. But I don’t feel privileged when I think about why I can’t continue: my nervous system is under siege and it’s affecting my health. I’m in a constant state of flight or fight, as though I’m looking over my shoulder to see the tiger coming. Each day I’m jolted into the heightened awareness you might feel after a near miss in the traffic — except the split second lasts all day. The threat doesn’t come from any particular person or environmental hazard. It’s as diffuse as the workplace itself and the history I bring to it. The workplace has been a site of trauma for me and I feel as though I’m reliving it day after day. I don’t think I’ll ever feel at peace in a workplace. The trauma workplaces inflict on neurodivergent brains The sense of unease that comes with being a neurodivergent person in a workplace made by and for neurotypical brains is profound. I have felt this in different ways with each job — communication styles, behavioural norms, organisational priorities — take your pick. In my current job, I am drowning in admin and case management, an area that is not my strength and never will be. <a href="https://jael999.medium.com/this-job-is-not-aligned-with-my-inner-purpose-675951d28c61">Read More</a>