I’m So Happy. Oh, I Am So Sad
<p>She’s confused. My daughter. She’s not sure why I’m dancing. I don’t look especially happy and she caught me crying in the bathroom, so why dance?</p>
<p>“Are you happy now, mommy?” She asks.</p>
<p>Am I happy? I’m not really happy right now, baby, but I have joy, so I can dance in the storm.</p>
<p>“The storm?”</p>
<p>She thinks about it for a while and seems to understand. She smiles at me. Then I felt so happy but it made me wonder.</p>
<p>Can others bring themselves to dance in the storm? Or am I just delusional?</p>
<p>My life is a roller coaster of emotions, with the highest highs and the lowest lows. On the one hand, I am so happy. No, actually, I am more than that. Happiness is too shallow. I feel joy deep in my heart.</p>
<p>I love singing and dancing and playing around with my daughter. On rainy days, she asks me if I miss being a kid and I say sure thing then she says come with me. I allow my inner child to go with her and we run around in the rain, jumping in mighty puddles and laughing out loud as if there’s no tomorrow.</p>
<p>When we are inside, she wants me to chase after her and so she does things to get my attention. I give in to chase after my silly little goose, capturing her in my arms to shower her with tickles and love.</p>
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