How to Use Your Dark Night of the Soul to Create Miracles in Your Life

<p>I have OCD</p> <p>Having this mental illness is like playing hide and seek with Satan inside my head.</p> <p>I deal with the compulsions well. I no longer touch things eight times, and by melting light bulbs, I have stopped turning them on and off 12 times.</p> <p>Although I still obsess with the doors, I check them four times to see if I have thrown the key when I leave the house.</p> <h1>Otherwise, I am functional.</h1> <p>It&rsquo;s not like when, as a child, I crossed the street by jumping from the white line to the white line of the crosswalk because if I touched the road, I thought I would die.</p> <p>Nor when, as an adult, the compulsion led me to smoke one cigarette after another, using the previous one and or rummaging in the ashtrays when I ran out of money for tobacco and having to smoke the butts.</p> <p>But I&rsquo;m still scared of the black voices that have lived inside me since my classmates beat me up at school.</p> <p>And there are days when those voices make me feel like I&rsquo;m not worth enough.</p> <p>There are days when I feel like a cockroach crawling to feed on pizza scraps left by rats in a cul-de-sac where it always smells like pee.</p> <p>It&rsquo;s not fun. But it is what it is.</p> <h1>My life is like a continuous dark night of the soul.</h1> <p>I&rsquo;m not a hero.</p> <p>I&rsquo;m just a guy trying to survive another day.</p> <p><a href="https://medium.com/the-writers-fight-club/how-to-use-your-dark-night-of-the-soul-to-create-miracles-in-your-life-e97bd1d68657"><strong>Visit Now</strong></a></p>
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