I’ve been in talk therapy for the past 6 months with the ammunition of 3+ years of personal growth research, writing, and awareness to tackle my deeper wounds. It’s gone well for the most part — I nerd out on these topics, so I enjoy having someone to share my innermost thoughts and ideas with and welcome in the 3rd party feedback. It was also something I wanted to invest in whilst preparing for my upcoming podcast (!).
And whilst the rational-based conversations and CBT framework my therapist often uses have helped me identify some limiting beliefs and core wounds, I wouldn’t say the practice has integrated or transformed them for me. To be honest, I often feel like the behaviour changes I implement and my newfound awareness is just layers I’m adding to a deeper wound that isn’t changing or being felt. Like covering up a problem by pushing it further away, it’s still there — to come out when I am triggered, or otherwise stressed.