To be honest, I didn’t know I was undergoing an awakening when it happened to me.
During the lockdown, an intense awakening cycle clearly defined my life’s before and after. It just felt obvious and the next thing.
Sometimes, it felt strange as the powerful stillness was slowly invading me.
The silence penetrated me so profoundly that I could not speak for over a month. Not that I lost my voice. But the very act of thinking became heavy.
The silence was so deep that even my mind stopped.
Imagine what would happen if there were zero thoughts and just stillness to the core of your being. Your mind may think it is boring or overwhelming.
However, without thoughts, I was more alive than ever.
You become more lifeful. The life around starts to pulsate. You begin to recognize that the ‘exclusive you’ is just a concept. Life is vast and throbbing everywhere.
Indeed, my parents and siblings got fearful of what happened to me. But I could hardly explain it to them. Thinking and talking at that time was too much effort. I could barely whisper.
Whereas breathing and just being was fantastic.
This specific event was one of many awakening periods. But it imprinted on me deeply.
It didn’t feel weird because I had many experiences beforehand. This was not the first time I went into silence. It swarmed me in the past, spanning a few days to weeks.