trying to be a mirror // claiming brownness in montana

<p>My uncle recently told me that in addition to being Korean, I&rsquo;m part Japanese, too. In stereotypical Asian fashion, I cried not in front of him about this, but four days later alone in my room. It&rsquo;s a few months later, and I think I am starting to understand why this brought me to tears.</p> <p>There has not been a day in my memory-making life that I have not felt an immense pressure to uphold the bloodlines of my grandmothers. When I was a kid, I had to ask my father to speak to me in Spanish, which he would only do inside the confines of our home. He was very,&nbsp;<em>estamos en los estados unidos, as&iacute; que hablamos ingl&eacute;s</em>. My mother doesn&rsquo;t have much of a tie to her Korean-ness other than her last name and the fact that she was bullied like we all were, even when we finished school. Despite (because of?) my parents&rsquo; broken ties with their heritage, I&rsquo;ve felt it my responsibility to reclaim and uncover the pieces of history whose threats of being lost are mere echoes from the long walk across South America and Angel Island.</p> <p><a href="https://jennyalvauaje.medium.com/trying-to-be-a-mirror-claiming-brownness-in-montana-9b72c53b40a1"><strong>Website</strong></a></p>